life lately.

Every time I think nobody reads this little blog of mine anymore & it must be time to finally shut it down, one of you will write in and remind me why I still keep up with it.  Thank you for that.  After answering a few concerned messages from some sweet readers recently, I realized it's about time I finally checked in here.   You guys know I don't really like to get personal here; like Jenny, it's important to me to keep this space positive, so if I don't have something good to post about, I'd rather just not post at all.  But since you asked, I will say that I've been juggling a sometimes-overwhelming number of endeavors and issues, most of which haven't been pleasant, and all of which have kept me away from my usual happy things--my kitchen, my sewing machine, my needles, etc.  To be honest, no, everything isn't perfectly rosy at the moment, but we'll get through it just fine, in time.

In the wake of a recent, emotionally difficult life event, I've found myself in the kind of place where you sort of float through time; you know, you go through the motions of your routines, and for the most part you look like your normal self on the outside, but you don't have anything substantial to show for yourself at the end of the day.  It helps to have a happy little one underfoot, and a best friend to wake up next to every day, to remind me of all the great things I still have right at my fingertips.  But still, getting back to tending all the other things on my plate is slow going.

So you know what I finally did yesterday? I turned back to knitting. I was actually on the verge of unloading my stash and selling off all my needles last week, thinking I would never again have the kind of lifestyle where I could carve out time to knit the way I used to, so why not reclaim that precious closet space?  But when I pulled out my neglected, pre-suburbia, pre-motherhood, Bridie-in-progress, to give it one last look before ripping, I decided to allow myself a few more rows before bidding adieu.  And what do you know, it only took those few rows to remind me of why I started knitting in the first place.  Because it gives me something simple and meditative to do, to block out all the noise and bring my mind back to earth, and I will always need to be able to turn to that.

To be clear, I'm by no means throwing myself a pity party here.  Even though there's a nasty black cloud in my rearview mirror, I feel pretty good about what's ahead.  Hope to be a regular here again soon.

xo, p